School is going fantastic and I've really found a place there. I'm performing so much, working, and I'm the secretary for the music club at school. I feel like I live there and it's so stressful, but I love it. I've kind of let it get in the way of my relationship with the Lord. It's too easy for me to say, "I'm tired and busy. I don't have time." Every time I say that to myself a red flag goes up and I'm instantly convicted.
This past weekend I was asked to come and help at our annual Winterblast retreat for the 7-12 graders from camp. I instantly got a bad attitude about it and started trying to find ways to get out of it.
My reasoning for not wanting to go: Being tired from school and home drama
too much homework
My car was broken
That's it. Those were my reasons. Those were my reasons for not wanting to go and see my girls and sing for the Lord. Those were my reasons for not wanting to serve my God.
Well I got there. I got into the roll of counselor again. Then we got ready to lead music (Accapella, because our piano player was sick). Within the first few moments of singing I knew God wanted me there; that I NEEDED to be in that environment. To get out of school, our of my depressing house, and doing something that God has made very clear I am to be doing.
God Knows What You Need
Our god is so fantastic and awesome and wonderful. I have been praying for a good solid month probably that I needed to get back to a good place with my relationship with God. I asked him to give me the push to get me back to living for him and acknowledging him in everything I do.
And then He got me to Winterblast and planted me there and said, "Here ya go Heather. Here's the answer to your prayer." (Obviously in a much more God like manner I would imagine. Anyway, I put my backpack away and just spend time ( A whole weekend) In the presence of God loving people. (Which is much different for me with the house I live in) The weeks leading up to this were so hard. Family problems, car breaking, and getting ready for a big audition led me to being very tired and just angry. God knows what we need.
My awesome God gave me the push. He got me there with my girls and gave us such a great opportunity to catch up. He gave me a voice to sing and the people to sing with and it was so great. No instruments, just hearing the kid's sing...wow...My God is so amazing. He allows me to sing for him. He allows me to be apart of those girls lives. He allows me to breath. So I came home with a new peace, an excitement I had been lacking, and an adjusted attitude. I read my bible this morning ( I mean really read) For the first time in a few weeks. My heart already feels different. My mind already feels clearer.
My God is amazing. He does amazing things. He gives grace and is merciful. He is patient and loving. And He gives His children what they need. He didn't have to do this for me.
and I am Thankful. and ready to just live for Him.
Until next time,
Heather
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