School is in full swing and life as a music major has proved to be...er..difficult.
Theory, theory, and more theory...and singing, singing, and singing. THAT is my life everyday for probably the rest of my life. Don't get me wrong! I LOVE music and I still believe my career choice was the right decision but I am definitly run down and stressed. I can get easily discouraged so I constantly
have to remind myself that God put me here and it is where I am meant to be at this point in time. Fear is big in my life right now and I am really trying to get over that with the help of my Lord. I feel so jouvenile saying that I get scared the teacher is going to call on me but hey, I definitly don't want to be the stupid one in the class! Everybody has their own strengths and weeknesses and some succeed in things that others don't and that is important to remember. We have to STOP comparing ourselves to other people because we are not the same in anything we do.
I know I personally have problems fully putting all my trust in the Lord. I can say all that I want that I trust him, but I always worry or try to control it myself like, "Well, I trust God but incase he is going to mess up I got it all figured out!" YEAH RIGHT! That is probably one of the stupidest things I have ever thought because I know it's not going to work out if I try to take control, I know that I shouldn't worry about things and be comforted by the knowledge that God is in control of my life. I mean, Hey! He is PERFECT and I am not. He is strong when I am weak and is all knowing.
Take a deep breath and just let go. (I say this to myself more than to anyone else). I am so thankful to have someone who loves me so deeply and to take care of me like he does!
This is my favorite verse.
When I said, “My foot is slipping,”
your unfailing love, LORD, supported me.
When anxiety was great within me,
your consolation brought me joy. (psalm 94:18-19)
Until next time,
Heather
