Praying for what I want, and accepting God's answers.

So, I know that I have been posting a lot of poems lately but it seems like that's the only way that I can get my thoughts organized! God has really been working on my heart the last few months and honestly it's been really tough! At the same time, I am just glad that He is working in my life! (see what I mean about organizing my thoughts?)

I've been praying about certain things for a really really really long time. Praying, for salvation for friends, witnessing opportunites at school, and peace at home. I know God answers prayers. It's a fact, it's a promise, and He's God so He doesn't brake promises. I do find myself, however, wondering what He is doing! I just want to know, WHY things aren't going exacly the way that i want them to go!

Maybe...just maybe it's because I am NOT God, and Gods' plan isn't the same. Usually, I wouldn't have a problem with that, but I guess, I think my plan would work out better than His....SUCH A WRONG ATTITUDE TO HAVE.

I KNOW in my heart that God has a perfect plan and He is in control of EVERYTHING but i constantly try to take it into my own hands. It only brings dissapointment and hearbreak because I won't understand God's ways! I am human, my desires are not good. They are of flesh, they are selfish, and I just need to learn to trust God. To acknowledge how POWERFUL He is and stop being such a child about things.

i don't even know if this post makes sense. It's just something God has been working on in my heart. To know how powerful, perfect, and awesome He is. To know that whatever happens, is okay, because it's what God planned, and his plan is perfect. He might not answer my prayers in the way that I had in mind. But that doesn't mean He isn't answering them.

until Next time, Heather actually....here's a poem about it :]


I keep praying but nothing is turning out like I want.
You keep saying, "wait" but my human heart can't.

The desires of my heart are taking control of my being
Are these the same desires you have for me? Help me see.

I keep praying for answers lord, I am falling apart.
I need to get back to you but I don't even know where to start.

The thoughts in my mind are taking over everything.
God, I need to get back to what you want, I need to make you, once again, king.

I keep praying, for the desires that I have, that you would take them and make them yours.

And you do, I keep praying, and you answer, always.